FinDom Goaldigger Singer

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I acknowledge that there are people more talented than me! I acknowledge, accept, and let it go! I admit that I can’t do anything well. I recognize that I am not perfect. I acknowledge that I struggle to achieve much. I have admitted to myself that I do not possess special talents. I am an ordinary person who is, in many ways, even worse than others. Other people are more talented and successful than I am. They are more capable and talented. And as soon as I accepted this and let it go, it became easier for me to live. I am very tired of meeting someone else’s expectations. My dad said that I dance and sing poorly. I agree with him. Yes, I have been dancing for 10 years. During all this time, I was only able to work as a dancer for 6 months. I wasn’t hired. Probably, I really danced well, but not at a professional level. Yes, I have become a better dancer over 10 years, but in the end, I did not achieve success. Then I realized that after 10 years of dancing, I had reached my limit. I can’t go further. I’m tired. There is no motivation to do something and not see results in terms of financial return or even just the opportunity to perform somewhere. I realized that the level I reached in dancing is my ceiling. I need to move on. And in fact, private lessons cost money, master classes cost money, and costumes are very expensive. And when there is not only no return but also I can’t cover the expenses, it was very hard for me to last more than 10 years. So I quit dancing. I just ran out of steam. The battery died. The motivation evaporated. The hyper-focus on dancing disappeared. I started dancing, probably, at 16 and continued until I was 27 or 28. Probably more than 10 years. And when girls who have danced for only 2 years start taking places in competitions while I didn’t even pass the selection. This was the finish line. I also didn’t have success with singing and music in my childhood. I started singing earlier than dancing. I also took individual piano lessons. But it didn’t work out. I practiced, probably, for about 5 years. It also didn’t turn out well. I admit that I couldn’t sing at all. But thanks to my vocal teacher, I started to sing much better, although worse than other students. But my singing teacher is a true professional. Even a person with no sense of hearing will start singing with her. I gave up singing and music. Which I regret very much. Last year I started singing again with my favorite teacher. I really like it! But I don’t possess any special talents. My vocal abilities and hearing are below average. But I’m not trying to be better than someone else or like someone else; I want to be better than myself. I want to sing better today than I did yesterday. That’s all. I don’t expect miracles from myself. I don’t expect an ideal. I agree that there are people who are more talented than me in everything. And damn, it’s easier for me to live when I don’t expect anything from myself!